Friendships. One of my best friends has often told me I am the most difficult friend he has. Because I listen to what he says and I respond, and I tell him what I feel as a result of what
A while back I sat on a zoom call with one of my teachers, a powerful masculine energetic being. It came time for me to ask my question. I said – so, I’ve been through a long period of contraction,
Now that we are taking care of the basics and have begun to move by walking the Path of Tiger, and we have gone a ways down the path, and things have become a little easier than they were at
A story for those feeling overwhelm in life. That feeling of not being able to move, crushed by everything being too much. And a possible path through – how you might work to dissipate this. I lay in bed, with
I created something over the past few months. A powerful act of conscious creation. I lost 105 lbs in weight (47 kgs or 7.5 stone) from 320 lbs to 215. From size 4XL to comfortably in size Large. From 42
My hands gripped the steering wheel tightly. My mind tight and fixed, thinking of how unbelievably rich are the people that come here. Families, with the patriarch standing by the fireplace of the massive ski chalet they own, staff scurrying
I have a funny story to tell you. It’s kinda crass, in that it’s a story about intense bodily functions, so I’m putting that warning out there upfront so that you can proceed with caution. I was in Santa Fe,
A story of suffering, of the hero journey that we can undertake if we choose it, and an offer of help. I was deeply agoraphobic. For almost a year I could not leave the house, and there were years and
Human-built environments are digital, digitized, bitted, quantized. They are binary or ternary or decimal. They have hard edges and extents, which exist in specific pre-defined sizes with nothing in between. They are all-or-nothing. My way or the highway. They brook
Being in a funk and just not being able to get out of it is a very familiar state to me. It doesn’t happen any more, but it did for a long time. This is a challenging topic to write
Today I woke up to a sloggy day. My mind and body are unsynchronized. I want to do stuff, but also don’t want to do anything. I want to eat something, but also don’t. I’ve got things to do, and
The snow falls like an army outside my windowThe white soldiers descend in lines so straight.An invading spiritual army,against which the human landscape has no defense. For a while the roads and sidewalks put out a valiant effortBut as the
What is Vision Web? Vision web is a journaling tool, i.e. something that we do with pen and paper that helps us with an aspect of our life. Personally I have found it to be one of the most powerful
I’ve become keenly aware over the past few years of what I call knife edge moments, where we are forced willingly or unwillingly to lick the sharp blade of nowness – directly engage with this world. In a knife-edge moment
Yesterday I cleaned the stove. Spritzed some cleaner on the stovetop, and reveled in cleaning each speck of grease off it until it shone, reflecting the light from the window in its dark brown surface. The countertops too, running the
For much of my life, I struggled enormously with the notion of community. I always felt outside. For periods of times I would “join” a community and spend time there. It would be important in my life. I would get
Discovering, and fully knowing, Basic Goodness has been the most fundamental transformation I’ve gone through. If you can discover this inside and around you, it will change everything about how you experience yourself and your world; it is that powerful.
I grew up in a land of constant fighting. The Ireland I grew up in is a divided nation. So much hate, dotted across a beautiful green island. People killing constantly. Taking young men out to the back of the
At a certain point, something happened to me. I started hearing my voice. I mean, it had been there all along, but now I really started to hear it. More than that, I began to listen to it. And I
At first there’s nothing. In that nothing, everything is loud, and the silence is deafening. So deafening you don’t hear anything. Then from somewhere, a magic place that doesn’t have a name, a twisty wisp of wakening happens. This wisp
In Oregon, where I was living in a cabin in the forest, I took a new road. That day, I took a right where before I had gone straight. As I drove down this new-to-me road, I couldn’t help but
I waltzed down Grafton Street, the main shopping street in the center of Dublin, Ireland, on a sunny spring day. I held a giant bouquet of flowers close to my chest, both arms fully wrapped around it, embracing them whole-heartedly.
I stood in my bedroom, a pile of probably 100 shirts on the bed, along with many other pieces of clothing, reaching several feet high above the bed. I stood beside the bed with one of the shirts in hand,
Shortly after I quit my job, left my apartment and the city I’d been in for almost 20 years, and left to wander the world to follow my heart, I woke up with a strong feeling. Not that I have
Standing on Pearl Street in downtown Boulder, Colorado. It is 7pm, the shops are closing. I am here with a purpose. I choose an Italian restaurant for my experiment. There are a few people inside, it is cozy and warm
Some of you may have seen this image, a logo, at the top of emails that I send out (you can subscribe to emails at https://coyotejackson.com/). I developed it myself as a my own spiritual totem, based on powerful teachings
Recently I helped launch something into the world. A creation that I have poured my heart into for over a year now; first as participant, then team leader, then program operator, and now as designer and builder. It’s a collaboration
I have been very ill for the past month. Debilitatingly so. For much of this time I haven’t been able to walk, hardly even to the bathroom, without large effort, holding myself up by the wall. My muscles stopped working
As you might know, when we sit in meditation we notice a thought arise, and when we notice that we’ve been thinking, we can simply label it “thinking”. Thinking. And let it fade as simply as it arose. Not pushing
The main practice that I am living life by at the moment is one I call “Care How I Feel”. This is a phrase I picked out of a workshop I went to a few months ago. This phrase in
I walked out of the office from the side door. I bid a last silent, unseen and unheard goodbye to everyone as I did, feeling into the shock, the clarity of this final walk through the door. Without a key
A strong smell appeared to me, as I drove across the massive Bay Bridge that stretches between Oakland and San Francisco. It was New Year’s Day, this year. The afternoon sun shone bright and low, the beautiful white bridge glowing
For anyone struggling with self-worth… a story from inside my head 🙂 A few days ago I was on a boat ride from Boca de Tomatlan to Yelapa, Mexico. The only way to get to Yelapa is by boat, there
A thought today about the ineffable nature and power of scale and perspective. Looking out at the ocean while meditating, the vastness of it, the never-ending roiling of the waves, the heaving to and fro, up and down, out and
I feel the draw of heading out with only my daypack. Down to the bare essentials – journal, laptop, a few clothes, toothbrush. The feeling that everything, absolutely everything that I need is with me, on my back, is extremely
I continue to deepen my understanding and practice of fear and uncertainty. It’s a fascinating and highly useful skill to expand our capacity to feel fear yet still take action. Fearlessness, that awkward word that doesn’t mean not having fear,
It’s a busy morning at my local coffee shop, a place I come to write. I manage to stake out a claim on a table in the corner, amidst the chattering rollicking kids clambering around their chairs. Kids seem to
Tonight the fear washes over me like the tide running suddenly in on the beach, far further than the previous surge. In the past 18 hours I have sold almost everything I own, including my bed, my bowls, my plates
I look out the coffeeshop window. Sun is shining on the wet roadways and tennis court. I tell a lady I’m moving out and going traveling indefinitely. Her whole face breaks into a smile, a huge warm embrace of delight.
Life is not in the understanding, it’s in the experience. Teachings and words and others’ thoughts are a signpost, they are the finger pointing at the moon. We must step out and walk on the moon – we’ve already got
It can be astonishing, when one listens and pays attention, how much time us humans spend recreating the past and bringing it again and again into the present. This morning in the coffeeshop I overheard a random normal conversation between
Tonight I sat in the Japanese baths, a Saturday night ritual I am called to recently. Sitting on a cedarwood stool, bathing my body intimately, from head to toe, scrubbing each and every corner, paying it the direct attention it
Sitting in Spike’s, a local coffee shop this morning, looking out the rain falling and feeding the earth what it needs. Such a deep feeling of love, appreciation, joy suffusing my entire being. Is it possible to distinguish between appreciation,
Hullo there young one, riding your tricycle in the back yard in the small city of Cork in Ireland, playing happily, running through the forest behind the house with a whole world created there in your imagination. I’m your older